kennlife

2008-09-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

Oops forgot to write post yesterday. XD
Not really froget.
Was just too tired to go and write one.
Yesterday was gp promo after all.
Not so straightfoward yet not too simple.
Like i think i won't really do very well somehow.
For compo especially.
I crapped the last part up. XD
Sigh.
Oh well.
It's all over.
Another vicious cycle's starting.
Next stage's going to start.
And i'm really going to die.
It's just the start of it all.
But i have that piece of shit feeling.
And i'm so freaking idiotically psychedly frustratedly pissed off.
And i really think that i will not survive.
Can't there be any way for me to just survive?...
No.
Fate just won't let me do that.
I'm becoming increasingly pissed again.
Just the thought of them is just making my blood shoot up to this high level where i can get hbp.
I don't know what to do...
Just let me pass through this year and i'll be eve grateful k?
I just don't like the thought of seeing them in class daily.

*~#Ken#~* (where the bp is starting to reach an abnormal 230 =.=)
5.45pm

Mayday (Or is it over?)

2008-09-14T09:14:00.000+08:00

One day after the sep 11 and it's aftermath.
Or at least the first stage of its aftermath.
Completely did no work yesterday.
Played all night long until 10.
And for the first time in81 days i have slept 8 complete hours.
It's no wonder that the newspaper reported a montha go that asian children aren't getting enough sleep compared to their western conuterparts.
Man i feel my english being so chim today i regret not taking lit and taking chem instead. TT
But chem is starting to get easier now.
Compared to the time where i had a stupid s for bonding. ~_~
Like that was so over.
Now for a new me.
I'm back to the old hardworking me whom people have seen for my o level.
And gp is not gonna pull me down.never.
I love seeing that 99 percentile thingy. XD
Well that's typically me.
And it's that hardworking me who will now go all out to get the best that i can in no matter which subjects i'm taking.
Hmmm...i always wonder why it takes me ages to write a blog post. XD
Or for an hour at least.
Like i started writing this an hour ago. ~_~
Suddenly i found the innovation for my morale.
I'll continue to strive for the best in me.
And i hope everyone whom i miss will do so too.
*Muacks* to those people. =)

*~#Ken#~* (where my motivation starts to eat the universe)
9.14am

Lit or no lit? Repeat or no repeat?

2008-09-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

2 days after the aftermath.
And tomorrow' the gp promo paper.
I got that confidence in me for my performance in gp.
Provided it's not like those gp questions that she set for us.
I had to sit somewhere where we got the hardest question to do.
The view of the majority is always right.
Like it's sooooo easy to get out of point.
The rest had my speciality topic which i loved so much.
Oh well.
Hope tomorrow will be smooth sailing.
Just looking at them makes me sick.
So sick.
I have to be reminded of that horrible piece of crap that we did.
We know that you are very capable la.
No need to show it off by doing that.
And i din't want that pile of dung to keep pestreing me.
Keep thinking i got nothing to do when in actual fact he gave me a pile of dung to make heads and tails out of.
Don't you think you got that kind of prowess that you can show off.
Everytime kep saying that you are very careless.
I don't need to care and know about that kind of rubbish.
Admit that you don't know la.
Always deluding yourself in a land that has no one except you.
Gah got enough of rubbish already.
They are people whom iso want to get rid of.
I'm so considering repeating although i have a high chance of getting promoted.
Not trying to showw off anything. =S
But it's just that i have that confidence to pass everything now.
But i seriously cannot stand being in the same class with them again.
I already feel very pissed off when i'm supposed to work with them in normal groups.
Socially speaking they are not good to mix around with.
One makes you feel pressurized and the other makes you pissed off with those all language and slackiness that hepresents you with.
I so wish that i could protest and choose another group to work with if i had known that this was the kind of attitude that i was going to get.
Sigh.
I had wished i ran to where my other friends were in innova.
At least they are like so together.
And i can concentrate on my promos first.
Unlike working on this
pile of dung first.
Sigh.
Oh well.Still considering about promotion.
I'm still thinking about lit.
What am i gonna do?...
Sigh.
I really can't stand this whole situation.
It has to happen at this kind of timing.
And this kind of thing somemore.
This kind of depressing situation.
Sigh.
This can go on and on man,
I seriously feel like repeating...
Aih...what am i gonna do?...

*~#Ken#~* (where opp cost of repeating suddenly shoots up)
12.49pm

Somehow i gained the feeling to write all my reflections again. XD
Like back in sec 2 and 3 when i so loved this avenue to express my deep feelings.
Reading all my posts again made me feel so wierd.
I feel taht i was so naive in the past. XD
But i still feel that i am now. =3
I'm still fussing about the smallest situations that are happening.
Not as big as what is happening now.
Blah.
Is it me or is it my temperamentality?
Can't be too sure.
Sometimes it's me who isn't feeling to give in.
Sometimes it's in an influence who gives me this feeling of not wanting to be someone's slave.
Like i'm not meant to be a dog to listen to someone.
Still...
Sigh.
How i wish i can study whenever i want.
I'm now stuck with the fact that i have to study like almost every minute except when o'm travelling.
So pressurizing.
But i ain't got a choice.
I'm still a loner in my class until now.
I can sense it.
Not even a single person in that class have i divulged my feelings deeply and truly to ever.
So the prospect of studying alone is staring me right in the face.
But have i done that before?
I have/
But not sure if i can do it again.
I'm worried for my sake.
The people around me are practically getting u after u in almost everything.
Considering that criteria...
I'm worried about them too.
But that's the problem with being in a jc.
Our subject combi is so diverse.
The only thing we can match with is maths.
Or if we talk further, chem.
Which just so happens to be something which i ain't very willing to feed on.
If those happen...
I'll be like the only soul who'll get promoted and the people around me will be freaking idiots who i'll hate.
Just pray that i don't get them in any group i'm working in.
Otherwise i'll really suffer like nobody's business.
Sigh...
That goes back to the big question.
Should i get promoted?
I can't think about that much.
It's just too emotionally hurting for me to think.
I just pray they'll do their best and get over the hurdle.
Otherwise i'll look like an outcast.
Not just in my class.
But in my cca as well.
Sigh.

*~#Ken#~* (Where the desire to study lit is getting stronger)
3.58pm

-No title-

2008-09-12T17:40:00.003+08:00

It's sep 11 today.
The day od the dreaded disaster.
Hey alliteration. XD
Never knew i could do this kind of writing.
Anyway back to the point.
Sep 11.Not 2001.
But 2008.
It's the day where I officially pulled the plug on myself mentally.
This is just horrible.
I am so sure that for THAT i'm and...
Wait did i say me?
It won't just be me.
It'll be affecting many others around me.
Now I understand what the pal framework is all about.One decision will adversely affect everyone else in one way or another.
And this time it really happened.
I thought it was going to be all over.
Who knew that such a thing would happen.
I'm just psyched.
And I don't know what to do now.
I'm just tired.
I'm going to get nearly 4 hours of sleep.
And it's not the usual me.
I can survive with 6.
But with 4, i won't make it all.
Kudos to those who supported and understood all along.
For those who are causing the people around us and us to be maligned,
EAT SHIT.

That was for sep 11.
This is a combination of 2 posts.

-12 Sep-

You know.
I just don't feel good.
It's just 6.30 in the morning.
And I feel like vomitting.
I'm so sure that i'll start to sleep in one of the lessons today.
Bad morning for a bad day.
Or however the saying goes.
If there is one.
Looking back at yesterday's post.
I don't feel any difference.
Maybe i will in the future.
But for the time being.
It won't work.
My mind is full of explosives.
I feel that my head could burst any moment.
I really missed blogging all this while.
I guess not many would read my blog now.
Because it's been ages since the last post.
But i'm thinking of turning to blogging for now until my promos.
I can't keep up with this stress level that i am at.
Sigh.
Do i have an alternative pathway?
Had i forseen such circumstances, i would have changed my mind about it.
I'm in an abyss.a deep one.
I'm being swallowed and i can't come up.
Sigh.
The sound of the cats meowing at me is just not lifting my spirits today.
Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.
Why is there even such a curriculum in the first place.
It's stupid to even have this curriculum, left alone whatever i'm doing right now.
Or is it my school's fault?
I don't know.
I look at others doing revision for promos.
While we have to finish this before ours.
I don't know which one is more detrimental.
Oh well.gotta feed cats.
I'll most probably have night reflections.
I'll be looking at that.

*~#Ken#~* (My heart ate my all)
7.17am

Morning reflections.
Just a short one.
Supposed to have lesson but teacher not here yet.
Sigh.i still can't get over it.
Everybody was fine with everything and no comments were given throughout when we were doing.
And now so much comments.how irritating.
Teacher's here.
Planning for lunch reflections. =)

*~#Ken#~* (Anticipation is killing me =[ )
10.42am

Bleh missed lunch reflections.
But i can't help it.
I just feel very down.
Now that it's all over.........
But it wasn't good at all.
I feel like screaming out loud.
But i can't do anything about it.
Unless it's so bad that it has to be done again.
Totally no mood ler.
I'm like a dead zombie now.
That realisation is just too much for me to realise.
Everyone made it except us.
This is sooooo frustrating.
Not just that.
It is making me feel like i am complete idiot.
I just can't settle whatever the extra issue is.
And this can't be any worse.
I have that very bad premonition feling that we will have to re-do.
And i swear i have given up.
I don't have any more drive in me to complete this.
I'm a battery with no power left and i can't be recharged.
Everyone can see that depressed look on my face.
And i can't change it.nor remove it.
It'll be with me forever and ever.
I really cannot bottle my feelings anymore.
I just want to forget about everything and start a new life.
I really really cannot stand this anymore.
I just can't be me.
I have killed my persona.
It's gone on 12 sep 5.39pm.for good.
And i will never be revived.ever.

*~#Ken#~* (Where the old me has died off)
5.40pm

2007-08-09T17:29:00.000+08:00

Ok i wasn't supposed to be blogging much =)
Just short and sweet.
I'll say thank you again to everyone who has brightened my life =)
Haha the end of such a short post XD
I'll post a long 1 after 12 Nov
The darn O lvls had to be dragged T_T

*~#Ken#~* =)
(Happily studying everything that i can do)

Days ahead

2007-02-11T17:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm...
It's bin a year and a half ever since tt last post i made
Quite a long time ago eh?
I promised to blog on my birthday last year
And i didn't.Lawl.
Through many events in life...
Birthday...
Sec 3 exam...
Motivation camp...

There's so much to tell
But i can't be bothered to say it all.
I have confessions to make
Besides the 5 suicide thing which every1 noes already
I want to say these to people who have in a way affected my life.
I shall not write their names unless specifically said =P.

In terms of duration of friendship.

1st-Someone =P
Lol.My friendship with you lasted for less than half a min.Honestly.
My shortest friendship. XD
But somehow your presence made it seem rather...
Significant in my life.I dunno why.
But somehow you make me realise what's the meaning of "hatred" in another form.
To hate someone whom you actually "like".
I don't know.It's like half-sided hatred.
Well,at least i know i'm human =).
Thx 4 letting me noe dat.

2nd-Class of 4G!!!!
YAY!!!Thk u ALL for supporting me,for those hu dont noe me well n dose hu do.
Thnk u so much 4 all de concern u haf given.
Let's all work 2gether 4 the bright 'O' lvl results we aspire for!!!
Ms Kaur-Thx 4 de comfort u gave me. =)
I'll work hard to be your top student again,ok? =]

3rd-Class of 2F(2005)!!!
Thx 4 letting me let down my hair!!! o_o okay dat's weird 4get it
Erm.Wad i wld mean is 2 let me relax.
Sec 3 n 4 r stressful so i had all my play in dose 2 yrs.
Thnx all for partying wif me! =)

4th-Certain people/person(I don't noe =P) of both classes!
Haha.It's fun toking 2 u. =)
My mind is so much more relaxed after saying lifting quite a burden from my heart.
Thnx 4 all de help in work dat was given.
And 4 letting me help u. =)

5th-(I cut her in)MY LOVE =D
Thank you for being with me =D
In fact if you all think it's a girlfriend or something
Nah it isn't =P
It's just 1 of my extreme close friends.
Hehe....=)

Last(I think)-SHAN N PAWAN!!! =)
Lawl.I luv u both de most. =]
Thnx 4 being wif me thru de times we wer 2gether in sec 1 n 2.
We may had been separated,bt we r always 2gether. =)
Little hints:
>Shan-U're moving on.Dat's a gd sign. =)
Keep going.Leave it behind.
That's the life that we all face.Jiayou! =]
>Pawan-Lawl.We wer dat close.Nw nt very.Bt still...
Thnk u 4 de msg dat day! =)
Remember the after 'O' thing! =)

I think that's it.
Oh well.Life.
As per usual.
Bad+bad+bad=rotten.
I cn't deny dat i luv chem tho XD
Bt i cn deny dat my sec 4 standard is slacking. ~_~
I onli cared abt chem too much XD dat's y -_-
Bt set dat aside.
MY A1 FOR MATHS!!!Y was it robbed T_T
I had an A1 originaly and it disappeared into A2.
74 leh!!!!!!! WTH!!
Still pissed tho dat was 3 wks ago.
Even gt marked down 4 meet de parents.BLAH.
I seriously will motivate myself as soon as I am nt vexed by anymore stuff.
Shld i end here?
I had a script bt it's way too long...
Oh well,i shall leave it here den.
Until after 'O's then!
Dat'll b de 6th nov,my lit paper is SOOOOOOOOOO late T_T

*~#Ken#~* =D
(Where i am so relieved on spilling my heart out after a long time)

Time n again...

2005-07-23T09:16:00.000+08:00

Well...
1 mnth passed by
N me date coming real soon =)
Lucki tis blog nt being hacked
Lyk wad de newspp said
Real scary
1st time blog got hacked
Ok nw 4 de past mnth
Tings r gettin real horrible
New sch=lovely
Ppl in it=i h8 dem
2 u n u noe onli u
I noe u ignore me n i dun care
I am wif dem
fine
I haf always h8ed u 4 disturbing me all of a sudden
N i take tis opportunity
2 dose hu haf been msning me
V pai shey me real busi
So cnnot chat k?
Bak 2 u
I dun care hw u look at me
N i dun care hw i look at u
I noe i look at a pile of dung
Wheneva i see u
So look at me lyk nething bah
N i dun care
At least i gt ppl
N i lyk it
Gimme a break
N i dun wish 2 see u
At de most
I close my eye
Hear sum1 say de werd
Den i wld walk away
N walk into MY sunshine
I dun care abt 1 werd u say
Or 1 action u do
It all bcomes
CRAP!

*~#Ken#~* =)
(Over de joy of blurting)

The moodiness of any life

2005-06-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

Oh well...
Tis seems bad rite?
I dun care as well...
I am juz nt in a rite state of mind dese days...
1st of all in de hols i haf been playing de com lyk mad
Nw i cn't get my hands off it
Sch starts n me being maths rep supposed 2 take all ur work
Bt nt only u
Bt many others are not handing up
I am goin 2 haf 2 chase aft u
Sooner or l8r ms isma will ask 4 dem
N tt iz de nt so nice part
So ur hw pls or else...
1st 2 days of sch seemed lyk...
...umm.....
crap!
1st day lots of lectures frm principal which is ok
Biometric system is crazy
It made every1 tap deir fingers again
It was so maddening
Other dan tt mr yap
Oh man
Hw cld he...
De sch's 1st day leh
Still kick a potted plant
Later bad luck nt our prob sia...
Den 2day...
sickening
sarking
idiotic
Very wad xia...
Early in de morn already D&T
See tt crappy Mr Ng
He sarks!
First 2 period all damn boring lectures...
Aft tt think of ideas 4 photo holders...
Ok lah tt kind of thing
Bt he see me concept
De say gd
crap xia
All i did was combine a pasar malam ride n a lamp 2gether
Nothing special wad
Den de werst part
Make me do de whole concept
in colour
He finds life v sian
Well i dun n i need my life
Otherwise i wun survive tis
I juz hope tt he is nt taking us...
Den mr abu came 4 maths
Nt ms isma she busi wif sumthing when i handed her graph papers
He teach wif crap
Talk lyk crap
Do lyk crap
Every1 dun even understand tt crap
Dey dun care abt Q4
Dey get wrong dey dun care juz hand up
Oh well...dunno hw he survive his tching course de
Neway me also wanna write 1 thing
V sry if me is ignoring u 4 de following events 4 dose 2 days
I was busi u cld see me
Ok...time 2...relax..i dunno y me eyes r a bit watery...

*~#Ken#~* ='(
(Crying b'cos me eyes r watery)

The personnel of the moody channel

2005-06-18T16:17:00.000+08:00

Aack
Dun understand wad my title is abt hu cares
Started de hols pretty nicely
Nw tis is de WERST hol i ever had
Dreaded 4 sch 2 start
Now i dread tt it doesn't start
I saw a vision
A horrible 1
1 tt will sumhow upset me
Very severely
So severely no 1 cn help me
N it happens when sch reopens
B'cos it's a face
A face of a jerk
A git
A custard
A pig
An xtra boy
Hu only noes how 2 act cute
His cuteness will turn into crudeness
N i hate it
U will pay 4 wad u will do 2 me when sch reopens
N it'll happen horribly
Time will show
A wk more 2 sch
N i wanna see de new sch...all de new things...
Lake(which ppl sae it looks horrible)
Classrms
Security guards?!?!*vomits*
N de fingerprint thing?4get it
It was crazy registering de prints
6 by 6 every1 called
Den classes were nearly delayed 4 sum period of time
Bt de girl i had was insane of sum sort
Oh 1st jun...how i wish it cn happen again...
Ah well...mayb my shortest 'cos i am starting sumthing...
Sum say lame
Sum say gd
How i know wad 2 do?
So i just try....n let's see if it's gd =)
Ok chao 2 all =)
*~#Ken#~* =)
(The feeling's so rite)

Depressed-as from 29/5/05

2005-06-02T16:28:00.000+08:00

It's been 3 weeks... n a day since i last posted
My grades:depressing
Overall:Dropped abt 3.sumthing
B3 turns into a B4
Bt cn't help it
War came at an inappropriate time
Now i am battling lyk hell
Pawan laid de foundation
I am 2 build de bricks up
Well...at least...
Reached 1502 when i haf posted tis
Now trying 2 do maths hmwk
Well lemme get tis done 1st
Few important dates were:
24/5/05(no order)
Well went 2 malay heritage center
I must admmit
It may have been fun
Bt a bit horrible
Asked 2 dance SILAT?!?!
And play music using different instruments
Music is ok ok
Bt de dance...
Whoa...
I wanna faint n topple
Den got nice snacks 2 eat
Well i missed the kueh
I dun really lyk coconut
So i took de curry puff
Not so bad
Den b4 tt went to look at de museum
I am impressed
Loved de xhibits
So interesting n beautiful stuff were seen
Maps antiques junks<--Not rubbish the ships
Den on de way home bought tis $1 fan ms nora found when we were walking along the shops on the way bak 2 de bus stop 2 get de bus bak 2 sch
So sweet i bought it ha ha...dun tink 'cos i am a guy means i cn't buy fans
Nxt:20/5/05<--Is tis correct?=X
Went 4 NKF challenge
Help raise funds
Um...sort of...
Well...
Just ran arnd singapore
Went 2 shaw house n completed tt mission 1st in de whole sch =D
Altho we just hit $10 mark juz lyk tt =P
Den went on
Wdlands a bit stuck
Cldn't find de ppl 2 talk 2
Den found dem outside causeway -.-
On the paper was popular bkstore 0.0
Den had 2 say tongue twister
Pawan nearly made me dead
Had 2 say 1 tt was 4 sent within 6 sec
I dun tink de ladies minded
Dey just heard me
"Arg arg arg arg...."
Talk sum sort of incomprehensible language
dey gave me de full 30 pnts still =P
Den everything ended pretty ok
Nxt 28/5/05-30/5/05
PLTC(Patrol Leader Training Course)
Pah...
De werst camp i eva went
Had 2 suffer
I wrote tis on 29/5/05
Here it is:
"Well tis will b put into me blog
So I juz write here
Later i 4got wad 2 write...
Hee hee
Me is half-suffering half-appreciating tis camp
But most prob suffering has bigger impact...
1st day so bad liao
All dat crappy stuff happened
Lectures till I nodded my head thruout 1 of dem...
But no 1 saw me =P
Meals yucks
Field yucks
Lecture yucks
But 1 thing is gd
The patrol mie is in
Every1 is so friendly
While sum of us r just too quiet
Toooooo quiet
Lyk me
But me is lyk dat...
I miss home so much...
I tot I wld bcome homesick
I did
Bt I tolerated it
Imagine so many strangers n u cry b'cos u r homesick
I feel very pai sheya abt it
N even de leaders
yucks
Yucks
YUCKS!!!
YEW!!!
Dey r de werst I ever had
Everytime i keep reliving de lyrics of summer sunshine(the corrs)
N inside your heaven(carrie underwood)
I keep tinking of home
I wan home desperately
I even wan 2 look forward 2 ms universe...
Bt tues n i haf 2 watch at home...
Home again
Everything is linked 2 home
Now raining lyk hell
So my mind even moodier dan b4
Bt mie patrol keep mie happy n pleasant
Other times i feel so unhappi n wan home...
So many hrs away...
I wanted 2 b lyk yest
When we had last lecture
I wished it was nite
Bt time doesn't fly quickly
It flies SLOWLY VERY SLOWLY
Even now abt 16 1/2 hr left
It is boring
I juz xpected meself 2 b a..
Normal scout tt's it...
Bt tis?
Not my kind of job
Not my kind of stuff
Haf 2 practice 4 campfire le...
I will write in me blog direct including night happenings =)
~#Ken#~ ='(
(Unhappy of the happenings)"
Ok b'cos tis isn't de end of de whole entry i did not pt de stars dere
Night happenings...horrible
An idiot chose me 2 b SENIOR LEADER
I was so angry lyk hell
Bt 4get it
I feel lyk getting him 4 tt...
Den had wad?!
Team activties all de way 2 1 am in de nite
Had 2 wake up at 5am
Sickening
At 1st say 12am wanna sleep
In de end drag by 1 hr
I drag 1/2 hr cn de
Bt 1 hr no way
I was feeling so moodi...
Den 5am woke up
Den everything was done by 7.30am
Thnx 2 GCE 'O' lvl xams
Bt had 2 wait 4 de bus until 8.30am
Haih...
Went bak 2 sch 2 do a bit of cleaning
11am den came bak home
Haih...
Lastly yest 1/6/05
Had a hard time playing games 4 trophies
Played grundo more dan 10 times
Only sent in 3 times
1 187 1st place until abt 4am drop 2 16th
Den last few min pushed 2 19th
Got 194 in shan
She gt 9th place(3rd place trophy)
Last 1 is 195
1 min aft trophies given out
Den i send
Too late le missed 2nd place trophy
Got av tt was it
Shan gt 2 bronze 4 hatpc
Real proud of her
At least she gt bronze
2 summore
I got 3rd at attack of the revenge
I cn really do at tt game man...
Real happi
Well 4 3rd place trophies
Nxt mnth aim: 1 2nd place trophy at least
Which mayb petpetsitter if i cn get rid of my com's problem wif tt game
Ok longest post eva
Now 2 end all of it =)

*~#Ken#~* =< => =S
(Confused ova the stars abt my feelings)

More grade showers reported on de moody channel

2005-05-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

Trying 2 create sumthing funny 4 meself
I juz cn't take myself
I duno y bt i cn't cheer up
I always use lame things n nothing happen
I dunno y am i getting tis sick feeling wif myself...
Even my appetite was affected
Only had 2 teriyaki chicken sandwiches
Not de burger wif de patty
I bought it frm 7-11
N den tt was my dinner
I cn't juz take it
Y am i feeling so down 2day?
Izzit b'cos i am scared of saeing sumthing?
Or am i nt looking 2wards 2 sumthing?
I juz dun feel gd...
Butterflies in my stomach
Everything goes horribly wrong
Eng ended up passing very borderlinely
Maths reached A1 borderlinely as well
If dere is 1 thing i hope 4
Iz gd hist
Even a pass
B'cos i dun wan another pass
I dun care if every1 get A1 xcept me C6
I am contented wif a pass
I dun care abt being looked down at
I dun care abt anything
I juz feel sumthing heavy in my heart
N i cn't let get off
CCA suxs 2 de core
2morrow gt CCA
Fri also
Fri is lyk...
We gt tt NKF thingy
Wad's de use of going bak 4 CCA?
Dun tell me we haf 2 stay in sch 4 CCA until 9pm?!
I will definitely run away 1st
2morrow...
I haf my feelings now
I usually skip 'cos i wanna clear my feelings
So many jumbled things twisting each other in 1 way or another
Altho i tried solving 1 n it's halfway
Mayb i shld discuss wif *gender unexposed*
Most prob we juz try 2 solve 2gether
N den...
Let's look at de results
Btw,if u r looking at mie blog
U shld noe
Dun feel bad tt u failed
At least now u noe u r weaker in using calculator
Train urself in it
U will improve tis way
Mentality mayb more difficult
Bt at least look at wad u got
It's considered near pass le
Work hard k?Me will support u =)
As 4 de other 1
Well...
Mayb u score a bit higher
Bt still both paper marks near each other
N total up get tt marks
Work hard k?
Dun let sickness overcome u
I wld juz let greyness get over me
No rainbow
De rainbow wld turn grey
Oh man senior called me
Now i really cn't escape
Mayb i shld just not go
Get scolded
Yah i haf done tt b4
Bt not scolded =)
Haih...
Well
Tis term is coming 2 a close soon...
N tt is when we will b able 2 enjoy
Den new sch
Hope it wld look as gd as it was when i went to my tution teacher's house
He he abt a few metres away frm front gate so convenient if her sister's son ever went dere
Hmmm...he PSLE
Gd luck 2 him tis yr =)
Ok i tink i wanna take a bath...
N wad's tt at my screen?

*~#Ken#~* =X
(Swatting flies in front of de com)

It's raining grades...bam

2005-05-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

Ah
Hate de results
I had loads of crap
Altho 4 de 1st time in history
I get A1 4 home econs
Cn't help it
I juz cn't blieve i got A1
I tot i wld get A2
Bt it's all done =)
Chi another A1 =)
My tution tcher cn gimme a long break muahaha
Bt others r horrible
Yesterday cried le
Lit failed
By 1/2 mark
Y cn't she juz gimme half more
Den i cn at least have a heavy buden off my heart...
Geo already failed le
46.5
Lucky mr sujorno helping by marking wkbk n handing in file
Bt lit?
Haf 2 see previous assignments
tt is all horrible rubbish
N sci was terrible
I wld nv xpcted 2 get a C6
I tot C5 gd le
Tis kind of difficult paper
Not my standard 2 look at it
Altho i got the IVF thing correct
tt ques full marks
N i was so shocked
Altho got lots of comments on it =P
Ah...hist mcq horrible
N i dun care
I fail hist is de last thing i want
N i will go on mental breakdown
I fail 3 subj is too much 4 me to handle
Last yr always fail 1 subj during common test n major xams
Tis 1 already 2
Duno hist will survive or not
Bt D&T will b de worst
I wun even get close 2 a B
tt idiot
if he dun teach properly
I will tear up de paper n tests he gave de class
Haih...
If only marks cld b improved a bit...
Altho very contented wif home econs =)
Ok gotta go n get my nife ready...
Hist paper will come 2morrow
N if i fail
I will suicide at home

*~#Ken#~* =S
(On the verge of death)

Time flies...

2005-05-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

Wow time flies by real fast
Xams over le
N ended art paper in frustration
Tore de draft
Tore de question paper
Accidentally tore my final draft
I juz hate art
I dun noe y i have hated it till i tore everything
Haih...
Bt had snow aisha painted yay! =)
N girl relax k?
Now u sick liao le
Haf 2 take care of urself =)
Dun mistreat urself
I take care of ur xam papers =P
Ha ha
Mayb sum1 else help u
Duno lah
Bt juz take care of urself =D
Oh well tis new song taken every1 by storm le
我爱你,爱着你,就像老鼠爱大米...
Wah xiao le even i affected
I listening 2 it now =P
Ha ha...
Had lots of fun on de com
N screamed at my brother
That <--Dun mind me i will have 2 erupt
FREAKING FRIGGING FARKING =X
BASTARD IDIOT
SENSELESS PERSON
JERK
BRAINLESS MUMMY
Ok done =X
I tink lots of too much stuff
Bt i dun care
Wana complain fine
I cn complain
N i am always successful =P
2morrow will get a few results
I will copy down de results sumwhere
Den i will tear it up
I noe it will sark lyk hell
Bt i juz hate most of de subj
Humanities too difficult 4 me 2 understand =P
Hope my other assignments will pull my marks =)
I will see my crap answers
My crappy slip
Oh yah eng
I dread it
tt mdm sue
Not ur authority 2 deduct 2 marks 4 not handing in draft
I tink she will scold me
She saw me doing de draft
Bt i din hand up
Neway she's not de 1 marking de summary
Y shld i care?
-2 -2 lah
As if i care
At de most she will b below the queen of female dogs<--Inappropriate pai shey =P
Haih...
I juz dread 2morrow
Bt it has 2 come
N rmb 2 take care k girl? =)

*~#Ken#~* =)
(Wishing over de stars tt she will b fine =) )

Characterize

2005-05-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

Well
De main point 2day:
Characterize
If I have ever sat 4 a sci paer lyk tis
I wld cry my heart out
I was so frustrated
Altho most of us studied
It was difficult
Bt I got part of the process of IVF correct
Juz wrote crap n half of it was correct
Betta than writing how does osmosis and diffusion help our everyday lives
Drew crap 4 de light question
Drew refraction nehow
I feel lyk failing
4 once i have such a strong urge 2 fail
Btw shan
April shi gen wo men de...
Zhi shi ta gen sotong mah
Suo yi hen xiang ta gen min ta men na bian de
If I get A1 4 my sci
I wld thnk heaven 4 tt
My main priority:
Sci tt i haf learned
Does not cover wad i need 4 my career
Ok xcept de yucks part
Which i had covered the pic while learning
N 4 once
My problems haf flown bak 2 me
Dey seem 2 b magnetized 2 me
Now i have 2 face dem again...
Is tiz juz worth it?
'Cos i noe suffering frm it
Is definitely nt a gd thing
It is tis late in de nite...*yawn*
So moody tired depressed
All my feelings all contraversial
N since when did i use tt word?
I dun even noe de meaning of it =P
Well...tired unhappy stressed 4 2morrow's last paper 4 art
So unhappy mie...

*~#Ken#~* =< =O ='( =(
(Unhappy,unchilled,cried,moody,wishing my new stars will bless mie...)

No title 4 2day...

2005-05-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

Listless
Running out of titles
Haiz...
N my life juz doesn't get ne better
Xams were complete rubbish
Xcept 4 MT last fri,home econs yesterday n aths 2day
Mon all rubbish
I hate eng
Deduct 2 marks 4 no draft
U shld have seen my draft
So messy
Very illegible how 2 see my handwriting?
Worse dan get 2 marks taken away
I may get nothing 'cos of de draft
Geo was crap
I wrote crap
Dey gave me rubbish ques i reply in rubbish
At least home econs not bad
I wrote Jew's hair 4 saffron thread
I was so dumbfounded
I din care
N i spelt tudung wrongly
Oh wad's wrong wif me...
Bt at least de rest r ok =)
Den maths
I cn't blieve de ques were a bit too easy
xcept 4 1
which i checked wif calculator
N gt wrong
Ah no calculator allowed mah paper 1
No choice juz get wrong wrong den
I cn make an A1 at least
2morrow sci paper my important subj
My future
My everything
Well juz have 2 do well
N i am satisfied wif my marks if it reaches B3 or A2
Nothing else 2 spill...
Spill later or another day wanna turn off com soon

~#Ken#~ =S
(Examgitis)

Oh me mam...

2005-05-08T11:23:00.000+08:00

Hey hey every1
V long nv post liao
Had 2 i mean 3 xams
Busy revising others so cn't do nething
Haf to revise
Bt get 2 b in front of com 4 a while...
De exams i took so far ok ok de
Wait till geo xam
I dun tink i cn survive it
Bt hu cares
I had nice CA marks
May make up 4 it hu noes?
Hmmm...
Lit test 14.5/20
I tink ms see mst b a bt X.X
april gt 17 O.O
Pawan 9.5 O.O'''
Wun even gif him 1 more mark 2 pass
Wad a yng hag she is
She betta not follow mrs khoo
Home econs...
Sick woman
Nice "enrichment course" she had 4 us
Rough puff pastry is a total pile of dung
Filling was yucks
Dunno how to cook tt woman -.-
Den de stupid dough
Others so much
We so little
Ling4 se4 nu3 ren2
Until last cover for de last pasrty so miserably small...
Yest had secret mission 2 do
Aha...
N it was a success
Pity u din come
Altho she kept asking me if i allowed u 2
I did only ur fone nt on
She say wasted
Bt nvm
I tink u were library as well most prob
'Cos most of de guys n gals went 2 civics
We went 4 a quieter spot =P
Ah...
She told me sumthing after de whole thing
N i am fine wif tt
I haf already accepted tt fact wad
I haf alrady seen tt in my future
Wad's my prob?
I juz need 2 make it b carried out
N tt's it
I dun care abt wad others tink
Lyk wad i said long long time ago
I noe i sark
Every1 is born a sarker
Even if he/she is an angel to him/her
Dere will b at least 1 person hu tinks tt tt person sarks
Even if u cn't accept tis fact others cn
Dun pull dem down the drain 2gether wif u
Suffer urself
tt's wad i'm doing
I wanted 2 type in wad i wrote 4 my diary de...
Bt i too lazy 2 take it
Oh yah nw i cn use it...he he
Ok tis happened on 30/4/05
De day of de chi big walk wadeva it was
Ok tis is wad i wrote
I din change of de contents
So here's how it goes...
"My worst day in life
Had a "big walk"
N went on till 9am+
Den dey asked mie 2 go orchard jalan jalan
Den dey buy "it"
(P.S. u shld noe wad de it is)
{Continuing frm top}
2 play
I am fine wif tt even tho i bought 1 le
After tt make us(only u noe hu it was)
Follow dem all de way 2 suntec
We dun even wanna play
Even (another gender) reject straight in de face
Den went 2 de arcade dere
Watch jon car race lyk xiao
Den dey left at 10.40
fhy asked mie y i dun wanna go
In a manner lyk i committed a sin 2 dem
So wad?
ppl cn change deir minds wad
Y cn't I?
I am not de positive person u tink i was
I always look at de negative side of things instead
B4 deciding whether 2 do it or not 2 do it
Wad's more u made us waste our time by walking all de way to suntec 1st
U cld haf just gone 2 orhcard immediately
By all means just walk bak 2 raffles city station
Wun kill it is a much shorter distance also
I had enuf of everything
(Gender wun b determined) also din care a single thing
N i 4got 2 tell (gender) sumthing tt wld defintiely change her mind
N which will gurantee tt (gender) wun go as well:
wt went
I cn confirm tt
N i dun care
We din go
N it's just a lucky (gender wun b determined)
Always treating mie n (gender thing again) lyk nobodies
I am human (Gender) is also human
We have feelings
We r nr robots hu r ur servants
Ringing de bell n say at ur service
My foot
We wld b boiled by den
Bt wadeva it is
Dey already making frenz wif wt
I am not happy
(Gender) is nt happy as well
(Another gender) is also nt happy
B'cos we hate him
We may change our minds if he leaves
Bt we definitely will haf a guard on ourselves
B'cos we noe wad dey r capable of
So stop draggingus into everything u do
We r innocent ppl
Unlyk u {P.S. the u reflects every1}
Hafing a guilty record in ur life
I haf had enuf
Tis will not do
All tis muz come 2 a stop
I will tae myself away
N leave myself at home
I cn
I am comitted 2 staying at home
Not going out wif u
Since u guys alread haf 1
FINE!
It proves tt u wun need me
N here r my final words:
Leave mie alone
Dun talk 2 mie
Dun chat wif mie
Dun even b frenz wif mie
Fine if u tink i am a temper child
Go ahead n tink lyk tt
I noe 1 of u is tinking lyk tt
N i noe all of u r starting 2 tink lyk tt
It's fine
I dun care
I wash my hands off u all
Ok bak 2 de arcade stuff =)
So we were at de arcade watching jon play car racing wif nearly all de guys
Lee hy
Shaun
Shu feng
Norm
N another guy
Oh yah emu n hezel
Speaking of another guy
sumthing funny happened
We saw tis guys slumping into a driver's seat
N he challenged jon
N lost abt 3 times
B4 de last 1 where he made hezel cause a distraction
So tt jon cld drive easily until de end
So tight
Jon won by 45m
Den tt guy
De story is told by april n de gurls hu saw
"He ran away lyk sissy wo!Ai yoh...He juz grabbed his bag n den cover his face loh...Den run lyk real sissy ha!"
Every1 had a nice time watching him
Even tho i din get 2 see along wif a few others
Bt we cld imagine in our mind hah
Den watched lip min n gang play ddr<--Dance dance revolution
Ms n yanling<--Aw every1 missed seeing her
Play sum sort of radio dj game 4got de name
Jon played sum sort of para xcept tt is jungfu style =P
He was mad
Kick here kick dere
Nearly kicked sum1 =O
Den finally watched wee kiat play a game
B4 we left
Real happie
After all tt happened earlier on
Sab n farah played percussion master
Kept getting de miss =P
Den we occupied 2 rows of seats in de last carriage of de MRT
So fun...see every1 black xcept yanling red _.- "
Hum dee dum...duno wad face iz tt also =P
Ok tt was all
N i dun need 2 xpress nemore feelings
Ok now shan help mie!!!
Where's de webbie 4 bloggies?
'Cos i may start on de grey 1 =P
Ok tt all will b bak on 13th guys n gals
Will miss ya! ;)

~#Ken#~ =) =O
(Happy 2 relieve my feelings)

4 once n 4 all

2005-04-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

Wow it's so late in de nite
N i am still posting =P
Ha ha
Hope me will not get caught 4 tis =P
2day sci test was sort of difficult
I din study much aft all
Bt i got a wee bit correct =)
De rest depend on luck
Hope cn get A1 to secure my A in science
Hist test was total bullshit
I hate hist tests
Ms Tay nv revise wif us yesterday
Only revise wif 2G n another class
Nv revise wif us how horrid T.T
I was lyk dun even noe how to do certain ques
Dumped junk on de paper
Lyk de ques on education
I wrote it was xpensive
Hu cares
It's rubbish 2 me =P
N i juz lurve dumping rubbish =)
2morrow home econs mrs khoo will b hopping mad
Hope she will
We will drive her to her grave
Make her bonkers when it rains
Hey sorta rhymes =P
Ha ha i dun care abt forming poems
Bt sumthing weird happened 2 mie
Tis aft approaching evening
I took a short nap
Abt 10 min b'cos of de 2 tests
I got real tired out
Den I was shook by tis nitemare
Concerning him
Showing me my world if we broke things off
Does it really happen?Mayb it's juz a feeling
It cn b fake
Bt he gets my point
N tt's all i care
I wanna throw tis nitemare away
4 once if it is real
Den i consider tis a wasted premonition
Bt if it is fake
I take it as a blessing
Wah i cn't sleep no wonder i am here
Ppl at pasar malam at northpoint tt area
Stretched 2 chong pang
Screaming lelong lelong
Wah i cn't sleep frm tt blah
Me juz try my best 2 sleep
Ok nite nitez 2 all...

~#Ken#~ =O
(Tired n sleepy)

Evil beings...

2005-04-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

Ok 2day was a real bad day
Hist tcher nv come
I duno y b'cos of tt i get all moody n worked up
I'm not hist rep de other kenny iz
I juz blurted my real name ah hu cares
I juz dun feel gd
In fact i feel as tho things r gonna b wrong 4 me
I am feeling juz as gloomy again
Bt now wif her on my side
I feel a bit betta
Bt we r always comparing ourselves
How long we were wif him n all tt
Do things really haf 2 happen?
I juz wished tt i had not known him
I am irked by him
Emessenger(x-msn),sch everywhere
I juz feel irked by tt sight
How i wished i cn b lyk tt guy from a game i played...
Using psychic n lightning abilites to frustrate my anger
Bt i always frustrate my anger de wrong way T.T
Sumtimes hurt innocent ppl
Lyk umb n pawan
I was so worked up den
tt's y i was so keen on changing the pw
N it's nt ur fault shan
Getting angry is a natural reaction
U saw how angry me was as well
I am juz stressed out,wanting to count de days i haf left
N counting the no.of white hair i haf
Ah ignore tt point it only reminds me of him more
I agreed wif her:
We wld 4get everything tt we cn abt him
She says i am not de only cold 1
True she cn b real cold
Me
Well
I am juz gonna dump everything
Everything i knew
Everything i did
Everything tt was etched into my mind
It iz all over
No more
Mr.Nice guy
It's time 4 de real nasty side of me
My hands haf been powerful ever since young
B'cos i haf always been at timezone during my pri sch days
Play de so called adventure games
Play de different modes
Play de whole game until my hands were red
Bt when i hit
tt's where the results come out
N it's not pleasant
So here's juz a warning n highlighted:
I am ignoring u
I am hating u
I am disliking u as de days go by
U haf no more previlige on emessenger
I dun care abt anything u do
Call me in class from de bak
Ask mie 2 go out 4 outings
Ask mie do projects wif u
Dose gd times were over
I regretted making up wif u after last yr's NAPFA test where u gt bronze b'cos of 2.4km run
U deserved it
I shldn't haf confronted u
I shld haf juz left u alone
I was on bad terms wif u already
U haf betta ppl as ur friends
Choose dem
Dun choose me
N not her as well
She n i made things clear
We r plainly ignoring u
N tt's it
We hate u to de core
We cn't trust u
Ur trust has juz gone byond de limit
Ur faith has pierced thru de line
U purposely put ur toe over de line
tt's it
I had enuf
She had enuf
We had enuf
We juz wanna say
Get lost
Get away from our lives
U make misery in it
It's a gd thing i did not wanna chat wif u
B'cos i cld close it immediately
If not i wld juz close it
I dun need ur kind intentions
Even tho u were de 1 hu gave me her msn
I cn get it from her myself
So dere's nothing 2 brag
I dun care abt ur sports needs anymore
I cn fail NAPFA
I dun care
I had gold last yr
It wun kill 2 get bronze tis yr
I am slacking lyk mad
N it's all thnx to u
Here it ends
U n i officialy
the rope is being cut wif the scissors
I fade away from ur mind
N tt's it
U r left alone in de shadows
N i dun care
So scram

~#Ken#~ =+
(Tongue-tied over everything)

4 1 sake

2005-04-24T10:19:00.000+08:00

Ok going on from yesterday
I just rmb
U haf heard e if i am not wrong
said tt josh was de bad 1
now i saw everything
I saw thru de eyes
I saw everyting ebil
N found the culprits
tt was y i din wanna let u break wif him
Bt no choice it's ur decision
N as a freind
U haf 2 respect deir decisions
Bt i definitely wun respect dem
I regretted putting deir names inside the close friends box
I shld haf put it into the casual side
I dun care abt wad dey feel
Dey juz dun fill in de empty space in my heart
I cn use sum1 else to fill it in
Bt deir's is completely out
I haf turned tt into a black heart
The twistes black rose tt u see
Will b wad tis friendship will b
In juz a matter of daes
While others
Well dey bcome pinky roses
N tt's my job
I sort out de rite n wrong 1s
N tt's it
I cn 4get everything i need in my life
As long as my job is to sort out de roses
I rest my case
Keep trying 4 dubloon i may try 4 deckswabber
N after pawan told me a guide destruct-o-match II
which i tink is most impossible
b'cos the guide says play normal mode
bt hu cares
Ok i rest my case 4 here g2g n try out wad i needa do

~#Ken#~ =)
(Glad after days of moodiness)

Retaliation

2005-04-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

Ok tis is not really retaliating
Bt tis is juz it
1st abt april
rmb wen i told u april n mei shen discussed tis revenge thing?
tt's how she is involved
N nice work on buzzer ;)
I'll work hard 4 trophies
Yup trophies n mayb advert attack av =D
Juz missed a bit 2day bt no choice
Popups swarmed ard
N april told ms tt everything settled liao
tt is de main purpose class tiff is over
N i am amazed tt u haf no probs umb
I tot sab n mint wld haf sumthing going wrong wif u
Bt 2 tink dere isn't any
Oh well at least u haf done sumthing rite
Not every1 in dere is a bad influence
Only josh isn't de bad 1
De rest r
Yes even jc
He bcame bad b'cos of dex
N i am serious
tt's y his maths have dropped to bcome shit
as 4 me:
sci me is pulling up de marks
so my maths obviously will drop
my mum hears of wad dey do
N she tells me if it is bad or gd
Dey haf only a few gd points
Negative=plenty
My mum said it isn't josh's fault tt he bcame bad
It's tt sum guys bcome real bad during dese yrs
N his is persuasive badness
Persuaded by him
Ai yah it's all confusing
All i cn say is
tt only josh is not de bad 1
De rest r
Ok later den post
I wanna stress out

~#Ken#~ =O
(Another sigh after the big blow)

Part 2 of feelings

2005-04-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

I din plan tis at first bt after realising a few things i dcided to add tis in
I was playing sutek's tomb
N yes for de 2 ppl i share wif <--Mr Tan's style of speaking btw =D
I haf scored a wide 42k score
42495 in fact
I took abt 2 hrs to play it
Bt tt's not wad i wanna sae
N i hate bragging abt tis
My head hurts after playing so much of it
De thing is
Wen i was playing,i was watching my time meter
At abt 10000+ it was very low
I had nearly given up hope
Bt strangely
It shot up after a big dosage of 5 combos including 2 bombs inside it
N it went on n on until i lost at 42495
Tis is de moral:
In life we r just lyk the time
We will keep going up n down
Feelings go up n down
called mood-swings in fact
I haf a lot of dese
I noe u hafing a lot of problems umb
Wif syk,sab dose girls
Tis is my advice:
Completely 4get abt me
I noe u dun trust me nemore
Bt 4 the sake of ur problems tt seem to b growing bigger
esp abt dose few
Just 4get abt the trust u haf wif me
i admit:syk is noisy
Bt i am hoping tt she cn change
Change 4 de betta
We will all help her along de way
Pawan n i will try
So u clear off dose girls
I may b frenz wif de girls esp sab b'cos she's my pri sch mate u shld noe
Bt tt wun mean i wun b ur friend
So in de mean time
yi1 lu4 shun4 feng1
xi1 wang4 ni3 de4 wen4 ti2 ke3 yi2 jie3 jue3
sry i very bad wif 2 n 3 syllabus 1
I nearly failed on tt
But just go ahead
I dun hate u 4 no reason
I dun hate every1 4 no reason
In fact i dun even hate u
Or any of ur near peers
Nw u haf read go n solve de probs

~#Ken#~ =)
(Wishing upon a star 4 success)

Feelings

2005-04-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

For once i will juz say tis
U tink tt ur own heart is made out of stone
U tink tt i am too much n everything
Wad's de use of saying all tis?
I already noe tt in my heart
N if u wanna noe 1 thing
tis is it:
the peers r not u
I am serious dey r not u
Dey r de other grp
The 1 wif ur so called x
Yes tt grp
tt is my negative peers
U guys n gals(which means ur grp)
Mayb a bit negative
Bt my mum likes u ppl
I cn't control wad she wans over mie
So it's fine
I dun take u as a real negative side
Only tt side will it b real negative
tt is my peers my x-peers
I changed the pw under pawan's instructions
We will tell ms tt it is changed
tt will satisfy her
N tt will b de end of 1 tiff
I am doing tis 4 de sake of clearing tis b4 it bcomes a war
Ok i said enuf 4 u bt i hope u understand tt i have an intention to help
Otherwise y wld i come into tis a/c n get sum of ur game avs?
Even if my a/c was frozen
I wld haf created another
Bt pawan asked me 2 play freaky factory n certain other games
So i did n the a/c is now wad it iz
I juz hope u understand
1 more part
U broke up wif him
I cn sae nothing
Bt b sure 2 learn 1 lesson:
In a relationship,tis is wad will happen
So understand it all n everything will b easy
yi1 lu4 shun4 feng1
Hope u will understand
Now to the other peers
I had enuf
U keep tinking of de idiotic wt
tt's y u tink i am not going
Lemme tell u frankly in ur face:
No
The answer is no
B'cos u r all negative
I noe u r
U tink i am used 2 everything tt u do
Too bad if u cn't play soccer 2morrow
It's not my prob
I dun care
U asked wt to bring the ball after learning tt i will not come
Den fung hy begged me to come n said tt u told him tt it iz cancelled
U tink i cn blieve tis crap?
Of course not
It is all crap
I noe u guys were at his house watching my response
I noe it
tt'sy i dared to say u cn call me a sucker
B'cos i am 1
every1 iz born 1
every1 has pros n cons
no 1 iz perfect
N tt iz the reason y i am not going
U tink u r perfect 2 make me go?
U cn't force me
I haf a heart n feelings
No 1 cn force any1 to do anything
U cn only force urself
Dun force others
tt is y u r tt negative
Sarky ppl sarky attitude
sarkers shld blong to hell
N if u tink i am calling u a sarker
Fine i am a sarker as well
Lyk i said every1 is born a sarker
At least 1 person will tink tt tis person sarks
N i admit it
I sark,ok?!?!?!?!

~#Ken#~ =@
(Very frustrated n deeply angry)

Part 2 of juz my luck...

2005-04-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

Where was I?
Oh yah at the writing of my final chapter of the tale b4 grabbing de knife
If u dun wan me to end up lyk tt,den steer clear
Get a life
Ur living xists 2 every1
No matter whether u r an irritating person<--Wang Hao,shy person<--Chen Hong,quiet person<--Ji Yuen or any1 else
U xists in sum1 else's world
But not in mine
U wld either live as a grey blocking fog or dun clash into my life at all
U always haf the rites 2 choose ur peers lyk wad Ms Sharizan said
Bt u do nt haf the rite to make dem bcome ur peer
U cn only regard dem as 1
Bt not force
N tt's wad all of u r doing
De true meaning of friendship is different
U mayb 14 yrs old 4 sum n matured
tt is de best part where u learn more abt ur life
Bt 4 dose hu haven't grow up
U r no longer a kid
U r a responsible teenager
U r responsible 4 ur own actions
Iz it gd enuf to help u wif ur life?
I dun tink u all r satisfied wif ur life
Bt if u r,den i am worse
I am always bothered everywhere i am
Dun u all hear de hw?Or r u just tooooooooo lazy to hear the teachers?
Make it a habit
Listen 2 wad dey say stop making me control my mind to turn u into a hindrance
Without fail 1 person will ask abt hw
pls,pls,pls,pls n a big fat pls hear the teachers nxt time
if u r unsure just call
it is fine
bt stop asking wad iz it
it shows tt u dun listen at all
n i am getting sick of ur reasonings
stop n pls stop asking me i am getting real sick of everything
I will nv respond to any msn<--emessenger chats nemore
I will always put appear offline
Pawan u haf any problems just sms me
My mum say it's ok abt me hp money for smsing
bt for calling no way just xpress all u got in 1 or 2 smses wld do
She says tt the peers tt i made r a bad influence
Tis yr she asking me to leave every1
She realizes tt my dream of bcoming a loner is true
She noes i liked being alone
She suggested me to ignore every1 n betta still juz concentrate on certain ppl as frenz
Bt i dun tink i wanna concentrate on certain ppl
I want to concentrate on none
I want to concentrate on my studies
My science which is so important 4 my future career
If i cn b left alone for juz the whole of tis yr
I am willing to sacrfice the rest of my life
At least i wld noe the feeling of a loner
N wad i dreamed of 2 bcome
The rest of my life wun matter
I cn sacrfice it
Sec 3 will b pressuring
I haf heard from my seniors
Dey r just soooo not for it
tt's y i cn sacrifice tt yr n my 'o' lvls just for peace tis yr
I want peace peace peace
i want everlasting eternal peace
Bt will it come to me?
I dun tink it will
If i hadn't met dese kind of ppl in de 1st place
Den the pic wld change
How i wished i cld transfer out of tis sch immediately...
If not take the simplest form of murder
N i will make it to heaven or hell
No more earth
N i am happy till my nxt life
I dun even wan a nxt life
Life is crucial
I am nt de easy-going type
tt's y i am different
unlyk others hu take things easily n let it go lyk Mr Tan
Bt for me wadeva happens will b left as a scar in my mind
It will nv heal
Nv b stitched up
A big scar wif all de bad things left inside it
I am lyk tt
Ppl hu cn't bear deir temper tend to bear grudges easily
N it is true
I cn bear a grudge wifin just a short while after noeing u or noeing u changed ur attitude
Every1 has a different motive in life
My motive is just to live tis life n nv come bak
N might as well add tis:
Bring upon death to myself n nv return to earth
Am I just too much for myself or am i xpecting too little?
In fact i am xpecting too little
Dere is more tt i xpected
I xpected the most harshful way of death to kill myself
I dun eva wan to live on tis earth again
Ppl r always causing conflict btween demselves
N it is juz no gd
Instead it will always sumhow come to me
B'cos i am linked to both parties
U cn nv imagine how i feel abt it
I have to cover 1 for another
Do u tink it is a fun job?Den u take over
Since u r always tinking life is so easy for u
Drink the bitter cup of tea b4 drinking the sweet wine
It is so true bt does the tea have to b a lot?
I have already taken a lot of bitterness in my life
Yet i am not repayed wif sweetness
Is heaven juz plain unfair or iz he trying to make fun of humans n sae we r fools?
I want my sweetness it has to come
Otherwise i will keep suffering under others
Others always take mie as a scapegoat
A servant
A palace maid
A reminder notebk
Everything n every1 tt has a very lowly job
N i do not blong dere
I haf a life n feelings
So do u
Dun abuse mine
N i wun abuse urs
Dun purposely make ur toe cross the line
N i wun make mine over urs
Simple n easy
If u cn't accept dese den too bad
I am nv stitching up or making u get near mie
Nv ever forever n ever
Wow longest posts eva ok very late in de nite bt as if i care
I will b editing my posts for now

~#Ken#~ =O
(Complete sigh after breathing all dese words out)

Just my luck...

2005-04-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

Now wad's happening to tis wrld?
Izzit really gonna drive every1 lives crazy?!?!
Just went i thought i solved 1 problem here comes another
Oh no now make it 2
Pawan seriously i din tell her tt u did it
If u wan 2 go our paths it's fine wif me
I will just give u missing info tt u miss out on sumtimes
I dun wanna sae hu told him tt
Bt i tot i had trusted u not to tell
Now tt trust is gone n will nv b stitched up
U dun wan me to make my contributions fine i cn leave
I cn change it n tt's it i give it 2 u n i wun even wanna touch de com
My reign wif the com is over
Since it is nearly byond repair
No use making me wait everyday 2 hope it works
If u wan things ur way den do it
I will not interfere anymore
If u dun tink u wanna interfere wif it anymore pawan
More likely u will stay n i will back out
I wun stay in dere 4 long
U cn do all u wan
I am just depressed after everything tt happened
N tis is wad i hate
I trusted sum1
N here i am seeing de result
Lyk i said:My dream is to do well in tis sch n live a loner's world
Izzit tt difficult?!?!
Cn't every1 just make deir own paths n walk it instead if clinging on to another person's?!?!?!
In life u cn't lean on sum1 4eva
U haf to walk ur own separate paths sooner or later
In fact after tis yr we r gonna walk our separate paths
Sum may cross bt not me
I wan 2 steer clear of the crossroads
Leave mie out of everything
I dun wanna b involved in nething
I am too vexed,stressed depressed up wif every1
Life is just making me feel like suicide
I wan suicide killing
I haf no use living on tis place
Every1 hates me
I noe tt
Only u dun wanna tell
U hate mie fine
U cn call mie wadeva u want
I'll make u happy by hearing u scream
N not responding
Iz tt wad u wan?
If u really wan tt,tell me
I will gladly do tis 4 u until everything is off ur chest
For me i will bottle n when tt day comes,i will commit suicide
Take the knife write the final chapter of my tale
N tt's it
No 1 will ever see me again
Later den i continue i g2g 4 tution

~#Ken#~ =K
(Very angry,depressed,bottled n vexed up)

Wow amazing...

2005-04-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

Ok the com amazingly worked so happy =)
Ignore my aft post den =P
Ha ha...ok 2day well...was the most important day of mie life...
Finally cleared lots of things my heart is a lot lighter
My load has finally turned from a dragging depressing grey tonne into a rainbow yet floating into de sky angel =)
I cn't blieve i am tt happy 4 once... =)
Mayb i haf found mie happiness =)
well happiness after all is derived from yr(square)+ m ehehe...
ahz 2morrow will b on big secret mission only a few ppl noe dun make mie bak out of it...
I took a long time 2 finally decide de decision
Bt den 1 thing just makes hope i wun die...
I went to check neo challenges on the sch com in de afternoon
den when it restarted norm said tt it will b realized by teacher *sob*
juz hope it wun happen...
Ok other dan tt no more unhappy stuff
The rest of de day was jolly n happy xcept mayb saying shut up to ms isma =P
So sry 4 tt i wanted 2 say tt 2 pawan =P =P
Ehehehe...

~#Ken#~ =D
(Feeling real high n over the moon)

Ah...

2005-04-20T12:09:00.000+08:00

Oh no my com complete breakdown liao cannot use even use opera to enter internet liao...T.T
Now using sch com to do tis entry...
Next post mayb until the start of de sch holidays T.T
All my mum fault
She only noe how to say serve me tir all my fault all tt rubbish
It is not even my fault it is de com's fault...
I hate u mum!!!!I really hate u!!!
Now doing home econs n it suxs...
A big fat lot
No com at home haf to do work everytime
Dey tink wad i wun get sian 1 ah...
I will as if every1 cn survive wifout a bit of relxation
All i haf no is work loh...
So unfair
I hate life i hate everything...all so unfair
At least i solved friendship problems...
Shan dun give it up leh...
Time will tell 1 dun need u to do it
Time will do it by itself just wait 4 it 2 b done...
Pls...he really likes u loh...
He xpresses his views betta dan him loh...
So dun give it up k?

~#Ken#~ =(
(Depressed)

Wahahahaz...

2005-04-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

2day was so eventful n fruitful...
Pawan came to me house he he =)
we did quite a few things eh? ;)
N u n de uncalled for stuff...
Now let's see...
shan u shldn't really do it
At first i said yes b'cos i tired now i full bat liao
Tis is de advice:
Dun do it seriously he xpresses betta dan tt custard loh...
U must haf a heart 4 him
de other 1 dun care 'cos he sux k?
Bt tis 1 doesn't...
Juz go 4 it even tho u noe tt u cn't b 2gether 4eva
Juz take it as a lesson in the game of life <--Not de game k?n00bs
U still cn b frenz after all
Bt tt will happen only when u tink de time is up
It isn't up yet
U only started it abt 1 mnth ago?
Time doesn't fly quickly
It is trying 2 bless u 2 2gether...
Make use of de chance unlyk me in my personal diary:"Lyk de hrglass turn it ard n wait it 4 de sand to finish flowing..."
Me is goner now k?Dere is no chance tt i will stitch at least tt 1 grudge k?
I may let the filling out of the pillow 4 1
The other continue stitching it 4eva
So dun give up k girl?U really cn't...
Haiz...k i have a small idea of hu's mum it was hu complained to MOE
Syak thnx 4 suggesting the idea ;)
Yes i noe aunty thnx 4 ur nice help
Bt unfortunately things have taken a darker twist juz lyk the moon on 24/3/05
Where it is pierced by the cloud...Darkness prevails the world
N it has happened in fact
Mayb tis prophecy is juz starting 2 bcome true...

~#Ken#~ =S
(Tinking of the may-com-true prophecy...)

Wah?

2005-04-17T14:32:00.000+08:00

It's de 17th n my last post was de 14th?Ai yah nvm...
I write now den
Stupid frigging com
Stragely i cnnot connect to de net bt when using opera...
Which is wad i am using well here i am
Bt i cn't use msn messenger so i haf to use emessenger
N it's all ur fault u stupid com
All b'cos 1 game nv work tis happen
Nearly all my data erased thnx 2 u
Neway yesterday was so damn frigging fun xia...
went to my aunt's house 4 BBQ
Den had dance party
wah me xiao man...
i dance tt time shorts flooped up nearly xpose =O
lucky not tt high n no 1 saw =P
den played card game wif me cousin,his sis n her bf
She brought her bf yet her brother nv bring his gf
Even my other female cousin brought her bf
Only he nv bring o.O
Party ended abt 11pm
Reached home 11.30pm
Den i did go on de com bt de problem came abt 6 hrs earlier dan tt
So i din stay long...until near 1 am
No time 2 update blog so in de end update 2day
Nxt party gonna b june or july liao
Just hope shorts dun floop up again =P

~#Ken#~ =)
(Spiritual)

Haleloooooooya!!!

2005-04-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

Oh yea as u cn see the theme is halelooya it's been raining very heavily recently
So i compromised lots of stuff abt raining men even 4 1 period of time my msn nick was abt taunting the teacher wif my halelooooya =P
Ha ha...
anyway,i try 2 make myself clear
I finally decided
Ok fine he will get a chance
Bt it wun last long...unless my premonitions r wrong which may have sum of a chance
bt no choice wen u trust sum1,dun just trust wifout blieving in him/her
I have cleared everything
My life is starting 2 bcome an array of rainbow colors now =)
Much happier dese days now tt i cleared 1 major problem of mine =)
bt...1 part iz...
ok 2 hu eva the parent is i noe it's my classmate's bt i duno hu if u read tis
thxn 4 caring abt me
bt u dun really need to lodge a complaint to MOE
i went to MOE school cluster centre 2day
n i met mrs esther mok (my x n current superintendent of x-peixin pri n cchy)
I had to make such a long trip 2 clarify matters
I appreciate ur kind deed
bt even mr yap feels tt the complain shld have been on y the teacher did not continue lessons instead of focusing on me
Once again,thnx 4 ur concern bt it came at the wrong time
MSN ok i dun update nemore b'cos i haf given the trust

~#Ken#~ =S
(Confused n a bit stress over MOE)

Muahahaz....

2005-04-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

2day overall is...very..umm...boring
Just plain boring
Nothing interesting happened...
Maths ho hum bad grade n i dun care
I found tt my maths dropped very badly long time ago
N i am concentrating on sci(not b'cos of chap 5 n 6 to dose sickheads out dere)
I am using sci for my future career
So time 2 start revising on tis important topic
Reflection n refraction of light...ho hum
Seems boring bt for future physics...hmmm...
Still cn't dcide triple or just chem+bio
Every1 wan me to enter physcis 'cos of me maths
Bt now my maths going down
Izzit worth it?
50 yes 50 no
Bt i dun care...
I just want to concentrate on sci n tt's it...
Poor shan com being fixed
2 weeks later meet u online he he...
Ok me speechless now
MSN always peaceful...
xcept for the same grp chat wif elders i really cn't turn dem down =)
Ok...now to end tis whole thing

~#Ken#~ =S <--Another new sig
(Confused)

Eh hem...

2005-04-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

Ok 2day not bad...
Had a pretty gd day xcept hist test
Suxs like mad...
Ah hu cares
2morrow tues=maths test result
I just hope i cn get gd result man...
5th in maths...lucky teacher take the better of the 2 tests
N make me top again pls...the 1st place is 3 marks away frm me...
2day noting much happened also...
Just had a talk wif DM
N she smells strongly of woman cologne...
So strong i had to sit bside her n i sneezed
Like no 1 looking at me
I hope 2morrow no more of tis stuff...
MSN real peaceful xcept 1 chat very big grp wun dissapoint dem dey r elder dan me after all =)
Ok tis the end...
~#Ken#~ =)
(Expressed as happy)

Wahahahazzzz.....

2005-04-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

2day was so really fun man...had so much of fun at bishan gv
Watched miss congeneality 2 wif bamboo,umb,her happiness,syk n her happiness n norm (Ha ha I am smart to say happiness =) )
So hilarious xia
den bamboo keep snorting lyk sandra bullock(gracie hart)
so irritated bt dun care we had lots of fun
den come out of theathre saw lots of ppl queueing up
den see the little pic dere say nkf mini concert
den bleh...made our way out of the bothersome queue
den went to take neo
de machine is damn lame nxt time take another 1 cn?tis machine we took made me irritated have to design n take at same time how lame
den went causeway to have makan den went timezone wif norm since umb n syk left 1st
Muahaha....i tink i noe where i trained my hands to bcome da li 1...
u noe dere is a machine tt is to hit lyk xiao 1?i rmb when i young i kept playing it
along wif another machine bak in yishun
n since i just played it...muahaha...watch out on mon
den went home n played com so fun....alone again until abt 5 dinner at 8 my mum was so xiao wanna wait for my bro to wake up
Shld haf gone down wifout him
Yay...msn 2day is damn peaceful
Yes my lovely peace..."wad is the thing tt the world needs?any1?" "world peace" "Yes world peace" n i totally agree =) <---Miss congeneality 2 rite at de end
when gracie went to the sch in de end
loved the movie hope more interesting 1s lyk tt will come out
establish the harmony btween white n black americans =)

~#Ken#~
(Joyous to the moon)

Speaking of...

2005-04-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

2day was okay a normal day
xcept tt i tot dere wld b a disaster
N 1 happened
bt i managed 2 avoid it...*whew*
Purity-the newest study by me
Ha ha touch on it nxt time nw too late to write abt it
Wahahaha...green house win inter-house eng competition win yellow house 1 point...ooohhh....so close...bt green still win =)
nxt mayb maths hope me get chosen n i take revenge =P
hmm...nv blog 4 2 days...always so busy until i dun haf time 2 blog 4 1 day,the competition was yesterday so nvm abt it
He he...
Now advice lines
Rabbit,u needa relax
Wei Thai is just pursuing u like a cat hu doesn't wanna let go of the mouse...
Ur aim is 2 get out of his grasp
N get out of his pussy claw b4 he catches u again
U have made 1 or 2 successes thnx to syk n wang hao<--I hate 2 admit tis guy b'cos he made me sick...
Bt it is not over
I had a dream last nite...
A real nitemare tt made me slam my alarm clock tt it didn't wake moi at 6am 4 sch
He was wanting to get u
Josh n him started 2 fight
Dey didn't look as tho it was 4 fun or sumting
Dey were real
Luckily no blood or nething
But very fierce quarrel
U haf no choice u haf 2 escape another 1 b4 it may mark de end of everything
Sotong,glad u relaxed from sports day thing =)
being love is sumthing tt u may regret u see umb's case?
tt's the wrong way of love
tt's y me is happy tt i am single
n so shld u since not every1 has stead =)
Bamboo,ummm...I dunno if u com to check my blog bt tis is 4 u
Well...to start off,iqah n u...um...dun really...suit each other
So mayb it wun b right 4 u to like her...
Even hezel n syk went thru careful procidures b4 dey wanted to b together
U haven't yet,so dun try it,k?
Hmmm...hu else...moi!Ha ha...i rather write in my own dairy...Lest sum ppl see my blog by accident n see everything so i rather not say dem out
Msn is...not peaceful i had to make myself close tt box again n again
Obviously u dun get my msg i say it 1 more time b4 i really cn't take it
DO NOT SEND ME CRAZY MSGS
I WILL NOT TALK OR RESPOND
IF GRP,I WILL JUST EXIT IT
THERE IS NO USE MAKING ME WASTE MY TIME N U WASTE UR TIME IN THE BOX
U TALK WAD U WANT TO DEM NOT ME
I DUN WANT TO WASTE MY TIME ON U
I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO
SO LEAVE ME ALONE GET OUT N STOP BUGGING ME

~#Ken#~ =( <---New ending
(Unjovial)

Me myself n hu else?

2005-04-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

Ho hum....weird post rite?I dun care i 4got 2 upate yest btw i so lazy i play nq2 like mad 2day finished yay!
Insane-starting after maraquan war so b patient =)
sch is fine....xcept 4 1 freaking idiotic s custard(sry i will not use vulgarities as i said so i will use other forms lyk tis)
All b'cos ms isma tell me dun pass paper
Stare at me like no 1 business
U wan 2 die early izzit?Fine,i will murder myself,haunt u n make sure u r pulled to hell
I will make sure
N tis is also on bhalf of other ppl
Every1 in fact tink u r a frigging custard
N u just stop talking nonsense
I did not tear the letter n song which were meant for umb
I have heard of a lot of rubbish from u recently
N u have been doing a lot of crap
So watch ur step n ur mouth
If not...I will murder myself i will make headline
N i will make sure i will haunt u with red devil eyes
N seize u n toss u into hell
N u will regret so u betta shut ur big gap
2day inter-house scrabble so fun
I nv take part b'cos sec 1 take part liao
I am de helper tho =)
Red house overall win
Yellow lose by 41 points
Red house won blue house by 15 points in 1st rnd
Blue house cldn't blieve it....ha ha
Green house dun need to say lahz....
sec 1 tis time...umm....no comments he he
Ok dun write liao end here
btw,msn a bit peaceful...still got disturbance lucky i close the boxes

~#Ken#~
(Swayful)

Ha ha ha...

2005-04-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

2day real happi man...
Bought a necklace altho every1 say ex me no choice liao i hate the big squares 1
Neway 2day all the lessons boring lyk mad...
Geo,lit,hist all boring 4got to meet ms tay 4 reward 4 playing scrabble sobs...
Bt hu cares i no hunger mood =P
I summarize everything liao...1 more thing
2day msn not peaceful in fact corrupted
I had a lot of rubbish from u my nick was referring 2 u stop tinking u cn make beat ppl
I beat dem to me own accord
Not under ur control
So stop tinking i did it 4 ur sake
N STOP SENDING ME MSGS N MAKING NUDGES OR ELSE TT WILL B THE END OF EVERYTHING N I REALLY MEAN EVERYTHING

~#Ken#~
(Enraged)

Well well well....

2005-04-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

2day was very normal weekend after all
played lots n lots of neoquest II all the way till near the end of faerieland 4 more bosses to go =)
Neoquest III coming out in april 2008 or later now tt's pretty bad...umb was looking forward to a new version
Played ard in msn n i found a new plus version n managed to change my nick into a beautiful n colorful 1 =)
So very very happy wif wad i did =)
Ok end here 2day very short...btw got not much disturbance just asking of hw n tt's gd tt every1 recieved my msg =D

~#Ken#~
(Delighted)

Oh yah uh huh...

2005-04-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

Went for campfire pretty fun although i hate it =P
Ha ha jk
But it was real fun...bt go all the way to cchs main wad is de use of going dere 4 campfire...might as well use another sch =P
Ha ha bt a lot of fun n a lot of screaming ha ha
Oh yah now me say abt de scrabble official tt crazy woman
She so damn sick everytime do a lot of rubbish stuff
Look at ppl must glare n stare
I face SCSS tt time the guy i faced skipped 2 times wanted to skip 1 more
den photographer rubbish guy go n ask her to come
den the guy decided not to skip
den she came we told her nothing 'cos we solved the problem
Den she looked at us as though we r sick ppl...
Den started n glared she told the photographer,"these schs r just wasting my time."
It was ur fault FTPSS said dey saw u as a fishball seller mad woman....
She wanted to bcome official her problem not me
Her attitude just sarks like hell...
But me dun care
Btw,peace in msn again...my wish is starting 2 bcome my greatest wish =)

~#Ken#~
(Jolly)

Yay!!!

2005-04-02T15:39:00.000+08:00

2day was so fun in scrabble...
Dun have the dictionary i still win 2-1
Sam so lucky...win 3-0 *envies*
FJPSS a bit easy lahz...dey send 1 sec 2,2 sec 3 n 2 sec 5
i play the sec 2 ha ha by luck b'cos she sit the 1st position
Jon n WEI THAI?!?!?!?!?! play the sec 5 n WEI THAI?!?!?! (very sarcastic manner) won....he siao win sec 5 jon ok lahz but wei thai win...so damn impossible...Bt i won the girl 276-258 real close my iq n qi had a triple letter b'cos q was 10X6=60 =)
Den jon was so freaky...He made the word fart from his tiles in the 2nd rnd yeeeewww.....april won me was pretty happy...no dictionary she blamed me b'cos i ran bak to sch n put very pai shey
bt she won 230 or sumthing lik dat to 180 near dere
Sam dun need 2 say he so pro until 300+ the girl 200+ dey say dey just enter 4 fun =P
2nd rnd better all the scores so high
SCSS very famous bt we got the wrong team we face team 4 dey were all sec 1 sam won 451-190+ wah biang...He so lucky...even april score 356 i scored 310 bt me opponent kept changing letters n skipped twice so i manage 2 grab the chances
Wei thai go hell he didn't need 2 play ha ha SCSS only got 4 player so wei thai dun play he go n help sum1 he walkover 50 points so little
Haiz...at least tt's a win
Jon was so weird...he kept laughing when he played against the girl i kept threatening to pinch him
tt was when he shut up
3rd rnd the worst....lose like mad
At least i am ok
My difference was 91 but i lost
unlike others all 100+ wei thai 200+
Only sam won 312-288
So close....But he won still
Total:11 wins including 1 walkover
Small chance of entering finals...But our class has the biggest hopes of entering finals liao 2H complete over
Lost bukit panjang gov high very badly...0-5 4 the no. of players hu lost
Dey lose n lose....At least we win FTPSS 5-0
SCSS 5-0
Lose PSS 1-4 Spread more dan 300+....But differnce in SCSS make up 4 us...Spread abt 700+ already gd enuf...
Now gotta cool n listen to ladies night...strangely i went to look at czech replubic idol...And i surprisingly liked it =)
So gotta go n hear...Msn peace 'cos i just came bak the officials was so evil like a dog next time den i say...i wanna relax now

~#Ken#~
(Delighted)

Hmmmzzz.....

2005-04-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

Ok 2day was sports day so went home early =)
Abt 12 noon but went wif girls to go bak to sch to return scrabble dictionary
N 2morrow the real thing...oh man...
Hope me cn do it =)
nothing much to comment 2day...b'cos sports day every1 dispersed ard the stadium into different houses interval saw umb n the others acting childish(no offence =P)
Keep grabbing hands n fwalalala....ha ha
Den bamboo came to my house i was like...y must he come...den after tt at least we accomplished 1 thing on april's fools day =)
Dear maths nitmare av....*Muackz*
My gleaming little square of fame...
Although i missed grundo =(
This mnth quite a lot of ppl went 4 grundo so....i fell out at 171
top 50 needed abt 174
bt it's ok i will get it next mnth =)
2day is very peaceful in msn...juz the way i like it...
No disturbance....n tt is wad i love

~#Ken#~
(Joyous)

Wad is friendship?

2005-03-31T15:22:00.000+08:00

Everything's going horribly wrong...
Slowly more n more ppl r hating each other...bt at the same time dere r more ppl bcoming frenz as well....at least i 4give mint 4 her attitude last time
N now i am going to b a loner... i want to b 1
N i will i hate every1 i am still having my VERY BAD MOOD SWING
So dun purposely make me angry or else u will really regret
I am on an extremely high bursting lvl of my anger range already
If i blow it,tt's the end
Not only will i ignore u,i will personally hit u
YES HIT
B'COS U CLD NOT STOP UR ITCHY FINGERS FROM TOUCHING TT BUTTON
N THAT IS WHERE U WILL REGRET TT DECISION
DUN TINK TT U R MY FRIEND MEANS TT U R NOT INCLUDED
U WILL B TOLERATED WITH IN THE SAME WAY
SO BETTA NOT TRY ME

~#Ken#~

Part 2 of leave...

2005-03-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

Btw abt the below post
I MEAN IT HUEVER U ADD INTO UR CHATS N ADD ME AS MSN CONTACT WILL B BLOCKED N WILL NOT APPEAR ON MY LIST THIS SHOWS TT I AM NOT WASTING URS OR MY TIME
EVEN DOSE HU I NORMALLY CHAT WIF WILL ALSO B IGNORED SO DUN TINK U WILL GET PRIVILIGE BY GETTING 1ST-CLASS TICKETS
NO TICKETS R GIVEN OUT XCEPT TO CERTAIN PPL
SO PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS N PLS DO NOT WASTE MY TIME I WILL NOT RESPOND TO ANY CHATS AT ALLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~#Ken#~

Leave.....

2005-03-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

Ok msn is officially making me sick 2day i had to handle 5 chats at 1 go n i hate it all
i dun have time 4 all tis stop bugging me pestering me unless it's real damn important
otherwise, DUN MSG ME UNNESSECARILY N I DEFINITELY DO NOT WANT GRP CHATS HEAR ME?!?!
I had enuf of all ur rubbish u r all making me sick
i dun mind the chat wif ji yuen b'cos she asks me hw
tt is the most i will accept
GRP CHATS WILL N ALL OTHER UNNESSECARY STUFF WILL B CLOSED IMMEDIATELY DUN WASTE MINE N UR TIME
N i feel very sick 2day....in the heart
So many ppl r leaving each other's grp n i may feel a bit happy
'cos when i went to the sch,i had 1 vision:study hard n live in a loner's world
tt's all i want but now the problems have grown tt's y i hate having friends
now i will only have a few friends n tt is it i will ignore n i really mean IGNORE the rest of u regradless of whether u WERE my freind or not
I dun care where i stand in ur heart
I dun care where u stand in my heart
Simple yet understandable get it?
SO NOW GET LOST N STOP OPENING GRP CHATS

~#Ken#~

Now ppl <-----Mdm Sue (ha ha)

2005-03-29T16:37:00.000+08:00

Okie 2day was real fun lit was damn fun to act naz "threw" the baby ha ha ha
I had a real gd laugh while acting
He he hi cinderellar.....(my sentence)
I was like....every1 laugh ha ha
I was so happy....
Until tt idiot talked to me
"Can u hear dem?"It was on another grp
I was like i dun wanna response
his looks alone made me boil
bt i hav to bear wif it....n tis is the worst
2day got real idiotic ppl....bugging me
damn irritating very very irritating
i wun say the name bt here is my advice:
u r just too much
u haf to leave ppl alone
u cn't make every1 follow u as tho u r the queen or sumthing
just leave mieeeee alone as well
i dun wanna b wif u serious
n it's not u although u r spying my blog no not u
I dun care wadeva ur bhaviour iz
bt dun pull me in any more of ur big talks

~#Ken#~

The half-happy half-sad heart

2005-03-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

Yay....today was pretty fun went shopping with rabbit,tiger(although she left early) n squirrel we all had nice time talking at least 1 dispute is starting to vanish =)
but seriously girl she has 4gotten everything if she cn do it,y nt u?we r all the same human beings xcept different personalities
bt each person CN forgive n i really mean cn
So just relax think it over k?
4 me....well...the half-sad belongs to me
All tt idiot fault i say sumthing must shoot me a face as though he is not happy wad's the problem wif u?U r just a sickening s hu just keeps looking at me as tho i am a ghost
if i am 1,fine treat me like 1 i dun wanna b stared at like tt
oh yah speaking of ghosts
bak to the other grudge
4 u,dun tink i dunno wad is going on
u tink ur eng is so gd wanna compare wif every1
U have just too much of attention
As for the guy wif him,i am going to make my decision: once i buy it,dere is no turning bak
bt i cn turn bak by not attending
moi is not making things difficult
since he was ur pri sch friend n since u r very close to another 1 there is no use of me being wif u guys
u haf faith in dem u dun need faith in me
even if u tink i bought it n not letting u guys use it,fine u cn take it as i am stupid i am a n00b
i dun care b'cos u choose ur company not moi
ur decision u make not moi make
so u wanna noe y i nv respond or nething is b'cos i realized 1 thing:i haf been like a dog ever since last yr
I followed wad u did n did wad u said
now no more of it i will abandon all hopes
u only haf 1 chance n tt is it:only 1
and after tis i will do evaulation
so tink wise otherwise u wun get to play nemore since tis is our last yr 2gether
ok betta stop here dere r insects crawling rnd my room....*takes swatter n swats big ants*

~#Ken#~

~Insert title~ :P

2005-03-26T13:35:00.000+08:00

Ok sry if i didn't update me had a few things going on so i wasn't in front of the com for a period of time
These days my brother kept using the com so it's not my fault my mum made me let him play n i had no choice
oh well....
Now 4 the serious stuff
I have realised more things
The 1 st grudge I had tt guy he is sick
All he noes is stupid chapter 5 of the sci sec 2 textbook n worst still,he attracted beetles b'cos of the stoooooooooooooooooopid clearasil
That thing leaked all over n it made a horrible mess by attarcting dem
tt sucker he deserved sum sort of punishment bt he went off lightly tt sucker
Ok another matter den i round up b'cos i have like a lot of things 2 say bt can't xpress it
If u had observe,24 march 2005 the moon....was pierced by a cloud
I had seen it n said,"Darkness will be upon the world if a cloud was to pierce the moon."
And it did happen bt i dun care i dun give a single heck care thought over my dead body abt it
N it happpened again on the next day 25 march bt nothing happened as well
I am saying this for this reason :follow ur loved ones if u dun follow dem dey will leave n sum1 will pursue dem
u're too young for love so far so betta not have any rubbish stead wadeva the crap iz b'cos tis is complete rubbish
Ok betta eat my lunch again in front of the com =)

~#Ken#~

another nightmare....

2005-03-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

2day i was rite a nitemare did happen
i went for triple jump n blah!!!6th place 7.25 i 7.24 nv make it to finals grrrr....
Ah nvm abt it at least i did clear sum misunderstanding but the 2 grudges stay the same
nv ever will dey b lifted i noe tt myself
I am so sick n depressed i fell as tho dere is nothing to say...
I am just so pissed off by everything ard me n now i feel even worse when the FRIGGING IDIOT say,"good morning i didn't see u"
I wanted to strangle n kill him i didn't even like him wad was the use of hearing him saying gd morning to me?!?!?!
I am so frigging pissssssssssssssssssssssssed off by u
i dun ever want to talk to u again i dun ever ever ever ever ever wan to see u again!!!!!!!!!!!
Just stop bugging me everytime like last yr call me nearly everyday abt hw
i am no 1's dog or servant or slave to say wad is the hw
so justquit disturbing me gimme a break get out of my sight i am erasing u out of my mind dun remind me abt u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~#Ken#~

oh man....

2005-03-22T13:38:00.000+08:00

Ok 2day officialy suxs i am so frigging pissed by so many ppl
1st maths teacher nv come bt she told me b4 hand wad to do den i tell every1 2 hand up work bt dey nv lazy bums i make sure u will get it from ms isma 4 sure
when i collecting hw the frigging idiot came over
i just grabbed his paper i dun even wanna see his bloody face it is damn idiotic
n den everything went wrong just wrong everything was not so smooth i dunno y bt dere was a feeling tt sumthing bad wld happen
n it will definitely happen 2morrow i noe it
b'cos wadeva i feel r always rite
my worst nightmare is to come...just like caylis sobbing,horrible things happen n tis wld just b the beginning.....i just wished tt i had NEVER EVERtold him tt i had it
if he didn't noe,my life wld b so peaceful
now i am so stuck tt i dun even wanna go out wif u guys nemore u noe hu u r
it is not my fault n i am not making things difficult it's just ur decision
u dun need me also fine
it was time u started bucking up ur studies
i also wanna buck up
so u only have 2 choices:either him or me the end of it

~#Ken#~

Hai yoh yoh yoh.....

2005-03-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

Ok sch reopen so fun on the 1st day already
Every1 had their laughs and fun only 1 lit grp presented i can't blieve the teacher man she was talking so much say so many bad things abt the grp(no offence horz,i noe 1 of u is reading me blog)
N 2 the person hu is reading i noe it's u yes me noe hu u r
the posts below weren't meant 4 u dun u tink dey r b'cos if u tink dey r,i shall cancel my funds 4eva
dun ever come to me asking to go out with u eva again
even if i had it now i still wun go
b'cos ur team member yes ur team member is the guy i am referring to
for the past few days i have been cursin on my bed
yes it's him if u dare tell him i will not only do the above situation bt also break off our friendship
i mean it so u betta zip up ur mouth n dun utter a single word or else....
ok now 2day...lemme say more on 2day...'cos sch just started
i saw his face again
n he irked me
very badly so cruelly tt i feel like slapping him rite in the face
all he knew is to b vulgar n start to think pervertically
2 any1 reading tis:pls stop saying all ur vulgarities just tink:how did u come to tis world if ur parents didn't have it?
just grow up b more matured n b more sensible
i dun tink it's funny b'cos many parents r always taking this issue seriously so dun go laughing ard abt it b4 i really feel like turning u into a pancake b'cos of tis
i have already grown n thought of it
tt y all my classmates cn see tt i hardly laugh during sci lesson abt all tis stuff:b'cos i am getting matured n so r u if u rn't matured,go ahead n tink like a pervertic lecher i am not stopping u b'cos i noe tt tis is classified as 1 category:ppl hu r hopeless n cannot b rescued 4eva nv in ur dreams
so just stop all tis crap n rubbish i really had enuf of it
worse is,i cn't xpress my feelings
me will nv b able to b'cos of all my problems,only my closest frenz wld noe n dey dun leak the secret 'cos dey noe
if it is leaked den mockery comes n all ur rubbish starts coming in to form arrogance
pls ppl grow up if u rn't u cn look at urself in the mirror n see wad u r like
if u noe urself inside out n u noe u r tt kindda person n if u noe me,tt's it i will cut off my friendship wif u the end of the story it is as simple as u tink it is xcept 4 1 case tt i have now n i am begging u not Not NOt n i really mean NOT 2 tell HIM abt tis at all
if i ever hear it,i will break the chain n even throw it away
yes i have made a hard effort now
u cld see in me msn nick everyday how much i haf done
n i cn watch it go down the drain so u had betta shut up abt it
Ok....tired n needa have a break to play neopets muahahahaha

~#Ken#~

wad to say....

2005-03-20T18:31:00.000+08:00

2day so sian,home alone for the third time so frigging fun
can face com for hrs without mum's scolding muahaha
but 4got to write for yesterday...haiz....
nvm abt yesterday 1 b'cos this is nearly the same
now 2 grudges
i nearly 4got abt an old 1 tt i had
very idiotic guy
maked me very pissed off a lot of times
cannot da han den just slap him
the other 1....
unpardonable,nv ever forgiven for the rest of my life esp b'cos many ppl have told me abt u
u nv changed from last yr so i noe wad u're like
u're just sum1 hu is too arrogant n is fishingly a small n skinny idiot
hu wants to attract attention
here is a curse for u:
attention-seeker,idiot,always bragging urself in front of every1
hope 1 day ur grades drop like hell
even if it happens to me,i dun care
b'cos i dun mind
i noe tt my studies have been dropping esp maths
bt i dun care
b'cos i can't stand arrogance like urs
arrogance brings nothing
nv ever will u call me AGAIN
if i hear ur bloody FRIGGINGvoice again,i will SLAM THE PHONE RIGHT AT UR EAR
Get it?!Just gimme a break get out of my life u git
I have bore u too long
U have just taken up too much of my time
I regretted telling u abt wad i had
now tt it is over,4get it u will just b gone from my life
Ok,the end for tis 1

~#Ken#~

dunno wad to say

2005-03-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

very vexed xia....had super long chats....1 in msn 1 in neo
n i am getting more pissed off wif yahoo
annoying person online 3 mins den go off as tho i got plenty of time for u
now at least 1 class problem solved....
or at least half of the problem dere is another half tt is not done yet
as for me i nearly forgot 1 grudge so tt makes the list 2...
n tis 1 i used to it so no prob 1
the other...well...all i can see is tt i nv want to talk to him again
now umbrella is relaxed...monkey is also relaxed....
only squirrel....well,tt 1 is totally insane
it is totally over
bt monkey creates tt small glimmer of light
n umbrella is thinking over it...
hopefully tt will come rite =)
as for me....
i have given up hope
dere is just too much for me to handle
i will not cope or live on with it
i want to start with a new life
bt ppl ard me dun wanna me 2 do so
i shld have just done it last time
to think i was so silly to stop dere
i will end it here....b4 i start flowing tears again

~#Ken#~

vexing...

2005-03-18T14:40:00.000+08:00

2day is xceptionally the worst,2day home alone n turned on me music so loud like hell
bt i got close window so of course neighbours nv complain :)
had so much time in front of the com n was so happy nia :)
bt den dere r bad things of course....
now i still think abt tt stupid grudge
tt grudge will nv lift itself
all b'cos of this grudge it can affect me whole circle even web of friends
i dun wan to lift it
bt if i dun,many ppl will b disconnected from the web
even if i do it,i can always 4get dem n have my own other web
now even more things happen more ppl fan si wo
monkey sms me like hell like tt....sry if u see ah
bt u shld have heard the hw in the 1st place
dere r always so many ppl asking wad iz hw,den if i add another 1 hu depend on me i will xplode 1
umbrella,relax....dey follow each other in wadeva dey do,but u have to think abt syk
mayb she hasn't finished up wif dem sum business?u have to consult her 1st to see when she is ready den she will follow u
ok tt's it.....n i will make sure tt i dun see nemore vulgarities nemore

~#Ken#~

wad a day...

2005-03-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

2day was so frigging fun nia....
went to de umbrella's house to do lit project n had so much fun socializing:)
n it is so fun man our plan...xcept tt we 2nd grp...we wanted 1st...T_T
den can get 2 extra marks...haiz....
well,at least we made gd effort
den umbrella's sis so cute.....she kept sitting on my lap,my thigh want to break man
haiz...well at least it was fun:)
but sumhow things r not looking gd for certain stuff....
sumhow the grudges r trying to lift themselves up
n i can't pull dem down
all tt i can say is tt i will definitely have 1 grudge
n tt grudge will nv lift itself
i will gurantee it
ok i can't tink nemore....very short for 2day...

~#Ken#~

wah....

2005-03-16T18:07:00.000+08:00

wah....2day was so frigging crazy
scrabble me didn't take part but we got 7 or 8th place
so frigging close to get trophy
but wad can we sae?marsiling sec thrash dem like hell xia....
dey can't survive AI,of course can't win marsiling 1....haiz...but can't blame dem
the schs used king of hills method so in the end lose lahz,no big deal
wait till nationals wah damn scary
now i have learnt 1 thing....
to de person(if u see congrats again not the same person as the 1st post)
i noe wad u want
u just want me to do it for u
n den i am the poor guy sitting dere doing nothing den u all play
i had enuf of it
i am no 1's dog n i certainly wun b urs
i have tolerated wad u have said for 1 whole term
u r a totally different person
we r getting matured
so pls grow up
u dun use ppl for ur own gd
if u wan 2 b like this,go ahead
i will make sure tt i will do the same as wad i did on 12/3/05
i will not turn up
i will not talk on the phone
if i cld,i wanted to slam the phone down
nv am i going n eva going 2 go out with u again
nv eva n eva
i see ur face tt is the most i tolerate
i wun even tolerate u talking
so leave me alone
u forget me,i forget u de end of the story
u have made me very sick with all the ppl tt u go out with(xcept jc)
so pls i beg u again,u forget me,i forget u ~case closed~
ok i better slurp down my dinner now *slurp* *slurp*

wad a change

2005-03-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

ok tis is so sudden i have like changed my mind abt everything i had when i was in sec 1
firstly,the little mouse(if he read umbrella 1 den u noe wad me 1 is)is sooooo pathetic i understand tt
but now he is trying to b worse
he is getting worse from last yr u think i can handle all tt pressure in just 1 go?
den another guy
dear goldfish(correct hor?)told me abt his arrogance n it is so damn true
is real frigging true
he is just too much for me to handle also
den jc(wadeva animal he is)
dis guy is so damn uninvolved loh
but dose 2 keep going with him i have no choice
oh pls...wad is the world falling into....it is crumbling under the hands of vulgar freaks....dey must grow up just for once xia....
ok tis me 2nd entry for the day nv eva will i want to do tis again:P

haiz....

2005-03-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

well,2day was so fun
celebrated early friend's bday....
went coffee bean for high-tea so frigging fun nia
pile up the plates n cups
den take photo of it muahaha....
had so much fun ard centrepoint
2day like so frigging fun
want to forget all my problems man....but me still haunted
now kanna worse got even more haunting
all the frigging problems r still staying at my back n just can't wait to stab me
i am daunted...2morrow going for n2cluster scrabble competition
after tt go library do projects
but i am related to a painful friendship tt i had in cme project
n i am just hating it
i hate myself,i hate everything,y did i ever come to tis sch?i shld have just gone to yishun town....
den i will have no regrets....
now got so many problems....
girls got so big problems,guys got problems also
girls 1 kanna worse
but if these girls see tis,i will not say their names
gd for dem
u girls r just damn frigging dogs
i had enuf if all ur nonsense
u have said too much to her
it is not her problem tt she wrote ur names in the notebk
u were breaking the sch rules
if i were her,i wld also write ur names
n not once,twice or nething
it will b the everytime u do it
n it is so many already
n u can't kick up a fuss b'cos of it
dere is no big reason at all loh
u just dun have the rite to do it since it is a small matter
class deco u also can't blame her
she is not rich
just like every1
if not y u ask every1 2 contribute to bday gifts?b'cos u dun have money also
so pls b more reasonable.....
ok betta end here i say so much liao

~#Ken#~